The day we found out we were pregnant we both began to start praying for all the different things that this kid was going to need. We decided though that the things we were praying for or needed we wouldn’t tell anyone about we would keep it between us and God. We would only share AFTER they had been answered.
All I can say is God was way too good to us. He really provided every need we had. We didn’t have to buy one single thing for Luke. So many people were so giving. I take that back we did buy one thing for him- a bib! Haha!
Anyway, sometimes the biggest worry you’ll have when you find out your pregnant is, “How much is this going to cost?” The financial part of it can really be overwhelming. I’m not even going to pretend that I was all spiritual and not worried at all about where the money was going to come from. I was so scared. But we committed to God on the day we said I do-that we were going to put ANY need/burden that came our way in His hands and let Him take care of it. So at the end of the day that’s exactly what I had to do.
I had heard from different people how much we would need to set aside and save for having a baby so we kind of had an estimate of what we were going to have to save. Thankfully God provided and we were able to save up just the right amount for my delivery and a few other expenses I had.
Unfortunately though, we had no idea that our baby boy would have to end up staying an extra 5 days in the nursery hospital. So when we found out that his bill was a whole separate payment and each day the amount was going up-we both began to worry. I remember Ryan walking up to me that day in the hospital and telling me that Luke’s bill was a whole separate payment-i could see the look of worry in his eyes-it was in both of our eyes. But that day he grabbed my hand and said “babe, you just worry about our little boy-i’ll worry about this.” Haha Now if you’re married you now how hard it is to do when you’re husband ask you not to worry about something. You’re ONE now and you do life TOGETHER. So I couldn’t not worry, but I did try to do my best to not let him know that I was worried.
The next four days were pretty tough. I was already emotional about having to leave my baby boy at the hospital and all I could think about was, “Where are we going to get the money to pay for this? Of course we had a little money but it was not even CLOSE to what we needed-and we had other expenses that needed to be paid outside of the hospital.
So for the next few days we prayed alot!! I admit I prayed more than I usually do-but of course-I needed God to move-We needed a miracle. It was hard, really hard. I remember one night we went to the hospital to visit him and on the way home I just stared out the window and quietly cried-of course Ryan noticed-and once again he reassured me it was going to be okay. I knew in my heart God was going to take care of us but part of me as a mother now couldn’t help but worry a little.
I remember going to bed one night too and Ryan pulling me close and us praying together. We both cried. There is something about going through a trial together that brings you so much closer as a couple. Praying together though will bring you even closer!
Monday night came and still nothing had happened…but we just kept praying. Every Monday night we have prayer meeting with a group of teens and bible students. Usually when we divide the girls and guys go separate but that night me and Ryan prayed together. We each took turns pouring our heart out to God. We both cried so hard that night. We both told God how that we wanted one day to be able to look back and tell our son all about how God took care of his bill. We immediately tried to wipe away the tears to avoid anyone noticing or asking what was wrong.
That night was our last night. The next day we would be picking up Luke. We were so excited to be able to bring home our baby boy yet nervous at the same time if we were even going to be able to do that. That night we were leaving for the hospital to go and visit Luke. Someone walked right up to me and put 20k pesos in my hand. I honestly had absolutely NO idea how to react. I felt absolutely numb. I couldn’t cry..i could barely even talk. And when I gave the money to Ryan he was just as much in shock as I was. We literally both just sat there and stared at each other. We couldn’t cry because we had pretty much ran out of tears by then. All we could do was bow our heads and thank God for what he had just given us.
Here’s the thing though-we didn’t know if that was going to be enough…we had checked our sons bill two days before and it was already 17k and we knew he had two days left-and it would just go up even higher. But we still were trusting God. We knew in our hearts he wasn’t done.
The next day we visited our son in the morning. We thought he would be coming home then but they told us it would be that afternoon. So we went back home and spent the rest of the morning and time left praying and asking God to work!
That afternoon we both talked how that we would just go on to the hospital and wait around till they told us we could take him home. After about 10 minutes after we arrived his nurse came out and said “Ma’am, your son has been cleared to go home! We need to process him then we will let you know when you can go pay the bill.”
While we sat there and waited we noticed a lady standing at the nursery window. She was starring over into one of the incubators. So Ryan went over and talked to her. She said how that her sister had the baby at 7 months and the baby was going to have to stay in the incubator for at least 2 months.
My heart broke as I listened to her tell her story. Here I was feeling sorry for myself and this lady was going to have to leave her niece at the hospital for 2 months!! God quickly reminded me how blessed I was…He also reminded me that He was going to work. He also showed me that there was a reason Luke had to stay a few extra days. During the days that we visited Luke we were able to meet 3 different families that we were able to give tracts with-pray with and invite to church. Meeting them and hearing their struggles really helped us to focus on the good of our situation.
Anyway, after about 10-15 minutes the nurse came out and told us he was processed and Ryan could go pay the bill. We both kind of just looked at each other. Then Ryan said “Lets trust God!” He then went down stairs to the billing office while I waited outside the nursery.
After a few minutes my mom, dad and sister showed up. We all were so excited to be able to take Luke home. Part of me though was torn. I was excited yet so nervous of what was going on with Ryan down in the billing office. I tried so hard to not show that I was scared and worried.
In a few minutes Ryan came back upstairs. I was sitting on the bench with my Mom and he grabbed my hand and took me around the corner. He held me by the shoulders and said “Babe, do you believe that God is in control? Do you believe that He’s always going to take care of our needs?” To be honest I didn’t want a pep talk I WANTED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. He then pulled out the bill sheet and showed it to me. When I looked down and saw that number I could feel the tears swelling up in my eyes. I once again felt numb. The bill showed that the total was 28k but had been brought down to 15k.
God knew we weren’t going to need more than 20k. He also knew that we were going to need that extra 5k to take care of some other needs we had over the next few days. HE KNEW. We didn’t. We thought we knew…but we didn’t.
Everytime God comes through for us. EVERYTIME.
I am ashamed to say that I don’t always have such a strong faith. Even though you see God answer BIG needs…when another trial or problem comes around we sometimes forget to remember what He’s done in the past.
God is good-and just like mine and Ryan’s desire is to give our baby boy EVERYTHING he needs or wants…my Heavenly Father desires the exact same thing for us as His children.
I hope this encourages someone else going through a trial or burden to just give it to God-not to other people. You tell everyone else your trial they may meet it but you’re going to feel like you owe that person…but you tell God-he never expects anything in return. He loves us and wants to give us the very best!!!